you now how sometimes you just want to write something down, so that it will be there forever. but you can never find the right words at the moment. and so it passes and you feel like you've lost something important. i feel that way right now.

there is something inside of me that needs to be said. needs to be written, recorded.

i want to see the ocean, i want the waves to tickle my feet.
i want to see a beautiful sunset, in a county thats not my own.
i want to travel.
i want to get high.
i want to meet someone and fall in love, and have that love last lifetimes.
i want someone to want to die for me.
i want to feel beautiful, no matter what i look like.
i want to feel happy.
i want to love life.
i want to paint.
i want to feel comfortable with my camera again.
i want to capture beauty in everything.
i want to see someone that has died.
and take their picture.
i want to go to london.
and paris.
and rome.
i want to see the cistine chapel and stare in amazment at the beauty that is centurys old and still brand new.
i want a friends that won't judge the decions i make.
who is just as crazy as i am.
and will come adventure with me unafraid.
no matter what the current adventure might be.
i want new ideas.
new friends.
a new life.
this one i picked isnt so hot.
so many wrong turns and you start going in circles.
i need a push.
a new direction.
close my eyes.
spin me around.
and push.